Former WWE Women’s Champion Victoria recently talked about her shock following the news that Ashley Massaro committed suicide earlier this year.  She made her comments on Lilian Garcia’s Chasing Glory podcast. Here is what she had to say:

“Oh, it was awful. You start second-guessing yourself. You start going [into] your mind games, you know? Like, [could I have done something]. And you know, I’ve taken a lot of bumps in my life. And backstage, girls don’t share that stuff with each other.

We have a happy face, it’s work. And I wish she shared all that stuff with us, because we would have been a good support system. We wouldn’t have judged her, or [been] like, ‘I don’t want to talk to you.’

I remember that day when I found out. Tommy Dreamer called me, and I go, ‘Oh no. It’s either a booking, or he has something funny to say, or it’s a death.’ I didn’t answer it, I was doing laundry. And I want to be focused on my conversations, and ADHD is not helping. [laughs] And then Gail [Kim] texted me what happened.

And I go, ‘Oh my God, Tommy just called me.’ I had to call Tommy, and he goes, ‘I wanted to call you before you hear it from someone else.’ And he was so distraught, because he got her a job and he was like a really big part of her life. So it was hard from all of us.

Not knowing someone’s pain is really , and there’s so many avenues. You can talk to a therapist, there’s free 800 numbers.

To feel so alone that you have to do that, you know what I mean? It’s not right.”